"Night Road" by Kristin Hannah
Another good one by Kristin. I haven't read one of hers yet that I don't like. This story takes place in a small town, families who know each other, kids growing up together, small community helping one another. A young girl comes to town to live with her aunt after numerous foster homes. She isn't like the other kids but none the less gets excepted. She makes a best friend at school and soon becomes like family. She falls in love with her best friends twin brother. She loves this family and would do anything to hurt them until one fateful night of drinking at a party changes everything. Lexi will lose everything she loved. Will she ever forget that night? Will there ever be forgiveness for her? "The last thing in the world she wanted was to stand here, pretending she wasn't shattered inside, but she couldn't make herself move, either." Sometimes we are so broken we can't pretend. "Mostly, she'd learned that some pain simply could neither be cured nor ignored nor healed." Facing the pain allows the healing. I believe all pain can heal, doesn't mean it doesn't still hurt, just becomes less hurt I guess. "What you did isn't the sum total of who you are." Truth for all of us. "When you love someone...and you lose them, you can kind of lose yourself, too." A deep loss that grieves us can make us lose a piece of who we are. "It was easier to suppress heartache than to overcome it." "Maybe you need to be broken a little before you can put yourself back together." The breaking is what puts us back together. It's in the breaking we find ourselves and that we alone can't fix it. It's in this place that God can do His work to put us back together again. "People think love is an act of faith. Sometimes it's an act of will." The feelings won't always be there so sometimes it takes just being willing to show love despite the feelings. "She didn't know how she would correct all the wrong paths she'd taken, but it was time to start undoing her mistakes. One at a time." That's where you start, one step at a time, it's never too late. "She'd known it all along; she'd looked away from it purposely, afraid that the pain would kill her. But not feeling had taken away her joy, too, left her in that gray haze of numbness." We often try and suppress the pain because it hurts too much but in doing that we also suppress all our other emotions. "In the sea of grief, there were islands of grace, moments in time when one could remember what was left rather than all that had been lost." Grief takes time, we all do it differently but there will come a time where rather than the pain of the loss the joy of having lived becomes greater.